before work musings

I need to go in early. I need to make money why? Because christmas is coming and I haven't bought anyone presents yet.
I apparently wrote this last year and the same holds true this year. Funny you think I would learn. I mean I have and I do but still.

I am the....

I get it I get it I get it. I'm different. Really. Fucking. Different. I know I've got 21 days to finish this year out super strong. To dig my heels in and really get a move on. I've got a really good start. I forgot why I started this blog and last week I was reminded why I did it. I started this blog to hopefully change some of the worlds views on us. Also there is a ton to talk about I just have to actually talk about it.

The past couple of days have been filled with people telling me I'm different and if I should know one  thing I should know that. I should know that I'm the standard by which they judge other dancers. I am the best dancer they have met. I'm the prettiest, the smartest, the funniest. There have been a lot of est's this week. It's been really great to be reminded, everyone that's been reminding me has also made it a point to let me know that it's okay to act like it sometimes or at least a little bit when needed. All of this is since last year was filled with a lot of the opposite and from people who's opinions don't really matter in the long or the short run.

Nothing crazy happened at work tonight. I ended up getting there incredibly late. I've got to start getting on the floor earlier I swear. I want to go in early tomorrow but I made plans with friends and I'm trying to be better at not canceling on people or being on time. I don't link what it is about strippers or stripping for a while but eventually you totally give up on time. In a very real way. There is no real reason. However every girl I know goes on her own time with everything.

I'm so fucking tired writing this.