This is all a bunch of mumbo jumbo good luck...
The other day I drove out to the east-side to visit two of my fave girls that I haven't seen in a while. I got dressed to go out there we have a running joke about if you have a bun in your hair or you are wearing sweatpants you obviously give no shits about life and shouldn't be seen outside. It's all in good fun. So when I arrive blonde let me in and I can here from the back bed room OMG is that red, please tell me she didn't dress up. I walk back there and find out that brunette is chillin in pj pants and both of them are watching superbad. I was totally envious that they could chill all day, because I have school and what not and I feel like I'm always running around. So I took a moment to hang out with them and have a few girl laughs.
It really does make me wonder though...What the fuck am I doing right now, sure I do enjoy life to the fullest every day I believe in drinking wine and eating good food, seeing friends when I can, and the place that I live is really important to me. I know that I rent but my home is my stripper sanctuary it's my happy place I go to even in my head when people at work are bugging me.
Also I go to school, and slowly but surely I'm getting through it and I feel good about it, I need to spend more time on it thought but I feel at times like I'm being pulled in too many directions. BLAH BLAH REAL LIFE BULLSHIT
Then there are the strippers who of course have invited me to hang out with them after work every night and I never go because I have to get up in the morning, but it always sounds so fun to go after work and hit up some after hours or have a girls night watching movies and eating junk food.
Now for a drop of drama...The other night I looked in the mirror at work and commented to the girls around that I felt super hot, and one of them got back to me with "Don't be cocky" I know that sounds totally stupid but I'm not cocky, and something about that comment light a mother fucking fire under my ass to be the best fucking person in the building again. I was so fucking pissed that someone would think I'm cocky when literally I could run around being like "I'M THE HOTTEST BITCH IN THIS PLACE SO GET THE FUCK OUTTA MY WAY" BUT...at the same time it really helped me refocus I really needed that reminder that actions speak louder than words, and I should continue to just be me, not get caught up in the gossip, and remember that it's a friendly competition...that I really desire to win...So I know you read my blog, I'm not mad, thank you for the ass kicking I needed that.
I love my life and I love my job, but right now I'm a little like...um...my personal time is a little confusing...So I've decided to go to bed earlier, I find that sleep and water fixes most of what ails me so...goodnight.
The future is now!
ReplyDeleteOr at least that's a line from one of my favorite movies.
Focus on your goals, but if that's not making you happy, then consider your goals.
Of course you want to finish school as soon as possible, but if you extended the academics by a quarter/semester to be able to have more flexibility in your life, would that be worth it in the long run?
It has been said several times that strippers are the best sales persons in the world. Becoming a stripper is more than just taking your clothes off for money. It is more than just seducing your customers so they'll buy a dance from you.
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That girl that said "don't be cocky" was really just jealous and envious because everyday she looks in the mirror and never once has said to herself "you are hot, or you are beautiful" and works in a place where girls are in the locker room taking selfies all night and bragging loudly how they are the hottest girls in the club and not one even once caring to think how that makes other women fucking standing right in front of them feel about themselves not tomention how arrogant it sounds. This girl that said that to you admires you so fucking much. You are a strong intelligent beautiful woman and when she struggles every night with her own self confidence she might have a momentary lapse in judgment where she blamed the woman (you) who was actually not the one at blame at all. The woman who called you cocky deeply apologizes for lashing out her envy on you. As to the not going out after work and focusing on school how can you not see that although in the company you are around it may seem odd but you are the one actually making something of yourself. You don't go out and party and sit around all day in pj's because you have priorities. What these other women are doing is losing the time to make something of themselves. no one wants to be the 40 year old stripper still acting as though she's 20 because she wasted opportunity. Working at a strip club with all its flaws still enables the strong educated women with priorities to work around school schedule and make enough cash to afford to make a future career path. However its so easy to slip into that envy of the free spirit and party life that you lose everything you've worked towards and that's all you have is the party living with the everyday guilt that you have nothing more for no one's fault but your own (I don't see you going down that path but it's easy to envy because it looks fun now). Keep your schedule of early nights and focus on school and Soon you'll have your career and can party on the weekends regret free. Love yuh girl -from the anonymous but really not so anonymous blog reader :P
ReplyDeleteThat girl that said "don't be cocky" was really just jealous and envious because everyday she looks in the mirror and never once has said to herself "you are hot, or you are beautiful" and works in a place where girls are in the locker room taking selfies all night and bragging loudly how they are the hottest girls in the club and not one even once caring to think how that makes other women fucking standing right in front of them feel about themselves not tomention how arrogant it sounds. This girl that said that to you admires you so fucking much. You are a strong intelligent beautiful woman and when she struggles every night with her own self confidence she might have a momentary lapse in judgment where she blamed the woman (you) who was actually not the one at blame at all. The woman who called you cocky deeply apologizes for lashing out her envy on you. As to the not going out after work and focusing on school how can you not see that although in the company you are around it may seem odd but you are the one actually making something of yourself. You don't go out and party and sit around all day in pj's because you have priorities. What these other women are doing is losing the time to make something of themselves. no one wants to be the 40 year old stripper still acting as though she's 20 because she wasted opportunity. Working at a strip club with all its flaws still enables the strong educated women with priorities to work around school schedule and make enough cash to afford to make a future career path. However its so easy to slip into that envy of the free spirit and party life that you lose everything you've worked towards and that's all you have is the party living with the everyday guilt that you have nothing more for no one's fault but your own (I don't see you going down that path but it's easy to envy because it looks fun now). Keep your schedule of early nights and focus on school and Soon you'll have your career and can party on the weekends regret free. Love yuh girl -from the anonymous but really not so anonymous blog reader :P
ReplyDeleteI just found your blog and I must say I've enjoyed reading it. I love your confidence
ReplyDeleteKeep it up
No twitter updates and no blog post for days,
ReplyDeletestarting to get Red withdrawls....;-)